Monday, April 26, 2010

roadblocks.

anger always kills the deal. we think of regrets and giving up, and it screws up our rationalizations we get lost in all the drama. how could we get past this is it makes us deaf and blind to each other? how could any of what we say make a difference?

i agree to disagree, but we know more than enough of each other that it's not worth hating each other. our disagreements have been too personal, and somehow our closeness has blurred the line of "i just have something to say" with "i'm saying this to take it against you". the latter is never the case. i believe we're something bigger than this. we have lost the words to comfort and console each other. i thought we've jumped over the roadblock, but the same roadblock caught up with us again. all i could do is pray to the high heaven we can get over this.

can u take my hand again, please?

Friday, April 16, 2010

why it hurts

- because i could never really be the project you aimed to conquer
- because i could never really erase the pain she caused despite our happiness
- because i'm never really who you ever wanted, i just came by surprise
- because i'm the only one here with you, and maybe i'm your last choice, i'm the only one